my ConFessIons

infact..its drizzling right now.just saw the rain.why must it always rain on the wrong day or time.

i had a weird dream yesterday,like i always do.i try not to mention many of those coz i think its not v nice for Jason to read it,or simply i cant rem.
in one of my weird dreams last night(you always have a few dreams in one night,yea?) i dreamt some of my friends including Jason is going to France.

i dunno..its more like they are going to army,but in the dream they are going to France.so in a weird airport,i send them off.
there were some other guys i didnt know that did not go.so one of them follow me home,erm..more like we are boarding the same bus home.

now that guy kinda resembles Charles in my sec sch,but more good looking.but i think he is Charles.
then i was lamenting that i cant even think of spending 3 months without Jason by my side(that's the duration of the France trip),how can Yng stand the 3 years that Simon gotta spend in NS?

just speaking of Yng,man...like i've said..she is really so damn-simony now.i wonder if i will ever feel the same as her,being so sickly in love.and i mean SOOOOOO sickly in love.

i dunno how in love Jason is,but i hope it's never till the extend whereby you cant live without the other party.
one thing about Jason is i realised he is the kind that falls in love easily.
im not saying he's the loony kind,but i think that it doesnt take much for him to feel that he likes that gal.(just like me)
and once he feels that he is really into that gal,it will take him a long time if you were to take him outta love.

unlike me...i dun fall in love easily.yes..im easily attracted to cute guys and so,but i dun fall in love that easily.and usually its those kinda instance connection i see in that guy that makes me really fall in love with him.
maybe you call that 'love at first sight',but im a that plus a lil bit more.
and it will then take me a damn long time to make me get over it.

towards Jason...its obviously not e instance connection that im talking about,and he knows it.
i dunno why i agree to be his gal then,but its kinda too late to ask myself after being together for 10 months and a lil longer huh?

sometimes im really happy when im with him,and sometimes he makes me really upset.and sometimes i really think im in love with him,but sometimes i think i need more time to answer to that question.

*sigh* -_-'

so what im trying to say is that...if things never come our way..life still goes on yea?

and im damn stupid to say that to Jason,and sometime after ask why izzit that Jason wont bring me to see his family and so on.
stupid Mich.

think its time for my sis to take over the counsel hat and consults to me.